Though i experienced the worst, you bring out my BEST
first and for all, i really don't know how to start this shit
as far as i remember, i said that my relationship with him was CLOSED
yea, for me. To be exact he doesn't know what was my decision even
our relationship was growing ..
i kept my feelings privately which is "i don't love him anymore"
but there is "something" why i can't say it to him frankly but this
last thursday 04-23-09 we finally broke up ;)
I DON'T WANT TO BE BIAS HERE JUST BECAUSE
THIS IS MY SIDE AND THIS IS MY BLOG
i want to make this short
our story start over the internet and we became good friends
we enjoy each other company. then 12-22-08 we finally and officially
together but reaching that relationship is not as easy as you think we/especially
I went to trials and test. in that day i experience the bitter sweet of my life, Oh no not
bitter it's HELL i go to a lot of pain it's particularly about trust and lie .
No one knew how much pain i experienced i trully gave my best damn cry to him
but i still keep my silence and decide not tell it to him,
i try to give him a chance , i want to give our relationship a chance i want to bring my best in this shit. but i do felt that this relationship or better to say my feelings towards him is not as before
i do feel the magic the love sincerity, but he's a little bit to late
i forgave him but damn those pain is so so so much unforgettable, until now i can't understand why do on earth he lied to me? all i know at that time is our relationship is worth the wait
i do have a lot of sacrifices skip class just to check his OL not to sleep just to wait for him[note:in front of the PC desk] getting wasted even there is an exam at physics and the like. now what i am waiting is the moment i can hardly laughing at loud to those moment :)
so now since i didnt burst all those pain to him i always keep silent
i wish someday he can read it haha ! i am not doing this because i want
some scenes, or get your attention to my blog i am doing this because
i think it can help me to loosen up :)
TO YOU : mush
All i want to say is thank you, you were susch a good [lier]
friend and a boy friend to me yes i do felt your love but it's a little bit too late
hindi mo lang alam kung gano ko hinintay yung araw na mahalin mo ko ng ganito
i learned a lot thanks :) just want you to know that i dont have any regrets with our relationship
i am thankful you let me experienced the "love" you let me feel special you let me feel how i am important you let me feel the magic. i don't care if that was sincere nor another lie.
ngayon ko lang nalaman hindi pala ako yung mahirap mag tiwala, simula pala sa una ikaw na yung walang tiwala saken,wala kang tiwala na may kaya mag mahal sayo . hindi mo ba naisip kung gano ka unfair saken yung mga ginawa mo ?
lahat ng pictures ko nakita mo, kung pano ko ngumite anung itsura ko sa school anung itsura ko pag masaya ako. hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit tinatago mo yang pagkatao mo , sa umpisa pa lang mahirap na lalo na pag sinabi nila "san kayo nag kakilala" hindi mo alam kung gano ko paren ka proud sabihin sakanila na internet
kase naniniwala ako sa relationship naten, sobrang ang selfish mo hindi mo manlang ako hinayaang
maramdaman ka. sobrang saket saken tanggapen na in love ako over the internet, sobrang saket kapag tinatanong kung baket pate saken hindi ka nagpapakita .
na realize mo ba kung gano ka sobra ka unfair ?
But the funny thing here is even i experienced the worst you bring out my BEST
♥ mushmush
since this blog experienced a lot, especially my moments with him
i want to give myself a favor to change my blog
so yeah goodbye to rainfallmakestar awtsx
yea it really hurts im so inlove with this blog this is my first and only blog
of the but then i choose to move on i wish you guys know how it really hurts . and this blog is truly one witnessed of the bitter sweet of my life thanks a lot
i will definitely missed it ;(
* so now i am in the process of thingking of
another new name of my blog hihi ;)
♥♥ JANN
